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“I’ve loved and lost, but now I feel like I might lose my mind”
I wrote this song a couple years ago when I began to question my mental health and started to take my struggles more seriously. This song was a way of putting to paper the way every day had started to feel to me and trying to make sense of it all.
This song is about feeling like something isn’t quite working right in your head and heart, a racing mind that forgets how to breathe; it’s about faulty self-reliance, it’s about catastrophizing yourself into a corner.
But, most importantly, it’s about how talking about these things might be the first step in healing.
This is my way of doing that.
lyrics
(He might have been insane)
Opened all of the windows,
Trying to teach myself to learn to let it go.
And shed some light
On all the stories I still haven't told.
Stepped outside
Down to that old laundromat with all my change
To wash out that wine that we bought
And pretend that you're just like any other stain.
I'm not taking back
Anything I wish I hadn't said
If I don't relax
I'll start hearing voices in my head
Now I can never get to sleep,
and I always forget to eat
and tonight, it's like I'm stuck between
The man that I am and the man that I wanna be
I've been talking to myself
Talking to myself
Talking to myself again
And I've been asking him for help,
Over-the-counter off the shelf
Just really wanna get well soon (oh no!)
I've been talking to myself
Talking to myself
Talking to myself again
And I've been fearing for my health
Wish I could just be someone else,
Just really wanna get well soon.
You know there's days that I still wish
That we could go for a drive up to see your mom
But now my heart's a china shop
And all that can seems to be going wrong! (crash)
So now I'm left all alone
With no one but me myself and I
Yeah I guess I loved and lost
But now I feel like I might lose my mind
Cause I can never get to sleep
and somehow I, I still forget to eat
I check the time and then forget to breathe
And I'm starting to think that something's wrong with me!!!??!?!?!
I've been talking to myself
Talking to myself
Talking to myself again
And I've been asking him for help,
Over-the-counter off the shelf
Just really wanna get well soon (oh no!)
I've been talking to myself
Talking to myself
Talking to myself again
And I've been fearing for my health
Wish I could just be someone else,
Just really wanna get well soon.
You know, I'll admit that I don't know all that much
But I know that I'm sick of this shit
I'm stuck searching for hours online
Trying to find my fix
Took all of 25 minutes for me to lose all of my friends...
But I can't pretend that
(why not)
I'm not talking to myself
Talking to myself, Oh
Talking to myself again
And I've been asking him for help
Wish I could just be someone else
Then maybe I could --
Well I've been talking to myself
Talking to myself
Talking to myself again
And I've been asking him for help,
Over-the-counter off the shelf
Just really wanna get well soon (oh no!)
I've been talking to myself
Talking to myself
Talking to myself again
And I've been fearing for my health
Wish I could just be someone else,
Just really wanna get well soon.
credits
released June 16, 2023
Music & Lyrics by Noah Vella
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